Faith
is an odd thing. We often want it to be
so like science. One hypothesizes God and/or
God’s will and then gently, but clearly, proves it…or does not. Then we know
just what to do or how to be.
My
younger brother often jokes that he is going to heaven on the family plan. I hope so. His image is that my faith
practice may be enough for us all. I
hope so. I wonder, with one brother already gone before us, will we one day
more deeply reconnect in the heart place of God, will we all? Will the unhealed places of this life one day
be full and whole? I wonder. Is this faith or just wonderment? I must admit that while my brother’s faith is
hidden to me, his ethics are not. They
are clear and sharp often.
In
today’ reading from Romans
4:13-25 we are still reflecting on Abraham and his faith. Paul uses the image of “faith reckoned to him
as righteousness.” It is credited to
him. Southerners use the word reckon,
but to us it means something like: I believe that to be the truth or the facts. “I
reckon so.” We will say. But Paul’s use
is deeper. It is here used to mean was
credited to Abraham. Like when I don’t have
the cash in hand to buy something and I use credit. I might have the cash elsewhere or tied up or
not at all. Yet I am loaned what I need to get through this moment. Except it
is not loaned here, it is fully credited.
Abraham
was as imperfect as you and I are, but he had faith. He could not always do the
right thing, but he had faith. He tried
to trust God’s promise that he would father by his legitimate wife, when he had not
for so long. He doubted enough to say,
Lord when? So what is this faith he had that was “reckoned to him as righteousness?” It was not science for science would be in
full doubt by now.
Faith
is not the lack of puzzlement but the willingness to puzzle through and on. It is a trust beyond what seems sometimes
correct reason. It is somewhere between
inner knowing and hopeful trusting. Some say it is a gift from God given to one
and not another…but given not on merit but on holy whim or plan. Abraham was willing or able to listen and
puzzle and hope and act as if. He acted
as if what was promised was a surety when it did not appear so.
We
see this at play in John 7:37-52. Remember Jesus has slipped into Jerusalem for
the Feast of tabernacles.
“On the last day of the festival, the great
day, while Jesus was standing there, he cried out, “Let anyone who is thirsty
come to me, and let the one who believes in me drink.
As the scripture has said, ‘Out of the believer’s heart shall flow rivers of
living water.’”
We
are told he is speaking here of receiving the Holy Spirit in our lives. Like
Abraham perhaps? The world about him
responds variously. They wonder variously.
Some
say this is really the prophet...the Christ. But from Galilee, others wonder? The scripture
says nothing about Galilee.... And they missed him. I wonder where I might have been in that
crowd for it mirrors life today.
‘Out of
the believer’s heart shall flow rivers of living water.’ This is
my hopeful place. If like Abraham I am willing or able to
listen and puzzle and hope and act as if, then I will live in touch with this
living water. There will be for me a
daily inner fountain to refresh me in better and deeper wonderment about God’s
good and intention for my life. That is
what it means to call Jesus the Christ, the messiah. In him I encounter the
hope of knowing God and acting as if.
And by the way, there is a little Sarah in me. I often giggle behind the screen and hear myself say, “Yea, right, at my age? This will be interesting”
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